The fragments of shifting from an old self to a new self

The good phase of healing – when we become like the caterpillar who dissolves itself into goo before transitioning into the butterfly. We become fragments of ourselves as we shift from our old self to a new self.

I am going through a big shift. My mind can only handle fragments of insight and execution, and my body sways from constriction to flow like a grandfather clock. During these times, I find it hard to be creative in my work as all my resources are used to create a more authentic me internally. So, I rest, play, and sit with my shifts as they tell me what they need to proceed.

Here are the inspirations I have come up with. Perhaps they will call to you when you go through your goo phases of healing.

Poems

In the goo, the caterpillar becomes a butterfly.

Healing is becoming goo.

First comes the shedding.

The rip and roar of the old dying, making way for the new skin.

We feel raw, so raw we tremble without our armour.

So we draw inwards and seek the soothing that cocoons us in a den of comfort. 

Somewhere, we can be safely hidden while transforming into our next selves.

We need time and love to accept the changes. 

In goo, we flow with a pace of molasses.

Slowly but surely, we become the butterfly.

The new us that soars with beauty and grace.

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The grandfather clock swings back and forth.

Ding dong, the time chimes.

As children, we sit and watch the pendulum and feel our bodies sway.

As adults, we forget to sway and get stuck on either end.

Healing is letting the pendulum swing again as we sit and watch. 

Let your body sway until you feel the swing settle in the middle.

Here is where you will feel flow instead of being overwhelmed or resistant.

Here is where you hear the ding dong and smile. 

The fragments of shifting from an old self to a new self

Both of these poems are from my upcoming book. I am still writing it. It will be poems of healing, abuse, the effects of the patriarchy, and the return to the divine feminine within us.

Resources

My goo phase is helped by four things:

• Mother Nature
• Support
• Radical Acceptance
• Somatic Nervous System Regulation Exercises

You can find worksheets on these in my store and stories of my healing in my blog.

For exercise worksheets, visit

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For Trauma Peer Support, visit

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For stories of healing, visit

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