I had to build myself up from ground zero. Parts were evacuated from the darkest places of terror in my body and soul. I still find myself excavating from areas I never though I”d find. At first, I couldn’t bear to think about taking a step down the deep, dark entrance of my wounds, but now I have done the dance of death ro rebirth so many times, I carry all the esentials I need to save another piece of me.

I often tell people I am creating a universe from the void within.

I had no idea how to do this so I went straight to divine God that does it everyday – Mother Nature. From her womb to mind, I built my body and mind from the rubble. I am now three stories high from the thousands of stories below.

I have left much war behind – abusive relationships, misogynist values, failing structures who weren’t as stable as I once thought. My footing grows stronger every season, every circle around the sun. I move forward with some deep wounds still to heal and a fresh fire to feed me good and plenty for my goals ahead.

My voice yearns to speak all that I was forced to swallow and tell women everywhere that the journey from ground zero is there for them too. Put me in your backpack as you descend. I am another support system to help you through.

Hi. I’m Laura Rose, creator of Returning to Her, healing from harm. 

I created this site for three reasons:

• To share my personal story to give others a sense of belonging, hope, and power.
• To share what I have learned from the education, research, and practice I’ve gathered.
• To share why I believe resuming matriarchal values will heal our society.

my story

I was conceived, born, raised, taught, and married into trauma. Until age 40, I thought I was severely faulty with extreme mental illness and that my world was ordinary. Then one day, somebody close to me said, “If I intended to hurt you, it would be abuse.” That changed everything. 

The spell had lifted, and I suddenly had new hope that perhaps, just perhaps, there was something else to my suffering. What if I wasn’t faulty? What if I was abused?

My therapist confirmed it for me when she heard my history. She said, “Laura, you have CPTSD, and it’s from trauma and abuse.” I needed to hear that to start removing the shame of being wrong and heal the massive injury to my psyche and nervous system. 

I’ve been at it since 2016. I’m not done. But I have made great strides and am returning to the real and raw me underneath all the trauma. It’s slowly unravelling like a massive onion, layer by layer.

My Voice

With this discovery, I have opened my eyes to how the world lives through trauma and the better ways to heal it than conventional schools of thought. I realize the depths of despair women especially are put through and make it my passion to study radical feminism and the return to matriarchal values, which I believe is the key to returning our world to one of love and peace rather than suffering. 

Men and women are craving to come home to authenticity and vitality. While I speak to both audiences, my words come from my experience as a woman. 

My blog is my story, plus my findings. 

Healing trauma is where you will find programs, worksheets, videos, and online therapy resources. 

My wor

About Returning to Her, healing from harm. To give others a sense of belonging, hope, and power. To share from my education, research, and practice.